Friday, June 27, 2014

Dang, I Made a Hasty Decision!

There I was with a beautiful thought for the day a family friend said about decisions. And almost immediately after, I was cursing a sleepless night on my blog!

What's all that about?

I wasn't thinking!! With no sleep, how could I have a clear mind?! Yes, I always try to have a clear mind before making decisions.

What decisions?

Decisions, like what to post on my blog, what to write about. I, generally, like to talk about good stuff, things positive, motivating, inspirational, uplifting, nothing negative, and on and on and on...

And there I was, swearing!! I just wanted to write down what I felt at the moment. And words could not describe what I was feeling, so there it was.

So what now?

What now?

... I can delete all this and pretend nothing happened.

But you know what, I'm not here to impress. I'm here to be honest. Honest with myself. And honest with you. I'm not here to just describe what I feel. I'm here to express how I feel... And that's exactly how I felt at that moment.

That's all I can really say. No apologies. I'm here to simply express myself on anything, everything, or even nothing. Just being quiet and observant, being still and resting, sleeping...


Thursday, June 26, 2014

No Sleep!!

!@#$%^&*()_+?! F**K!!!!

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Thought of the Day

A decision made in haste is made in waste.

Indeed! That's why I don't make decisions when I'm tired, angry, or the like. I try not to, anyway. I, generally, wait till my mind is clear.

Monday, June 23, 2014

Divine Something?

I had this experience Sunday that was quite unusual. I couldn't go to mass since I had to work, but since it was nice outside, I thought I'd take a walk before going to work. Once I was outside the house, I didn't know whether to turn left or right. I decided to go left. Enjoying the  walk, I saw a sign on a street corner about new summer classes, including ZUMBA which I've been quite excited to take, being offered at a health club in the neighborhood. I couldn't decide whether to go visit the club then or continue my walk. Just when the streetlight changed from red to green, I decided, last minute, to check out the club.

I liked the place, I like the classes, so I thought I'd come back and enroll the next day or so when I was off. I left the club and I didn't know whether to go left or right again. Then I decided to go right and while walking, it dawned on me that I was close to the church so I thought I might as well go visit. It felt good to realize I could go to church after all. I knew I couldn't stay for the whole mass but a short stay would be okay. Once inside, I started my usual prayers, but to my amazement, I couldn't pray. I kept stopping, I didn't know why. The mass was starting, the processional music being sang by the choir, so I thought I'd just join in and continue praying later. After that, I started to pray again but I couldn't pray. I couldn't do it. It felt strange. Something was stopping me. An inner voice was telling me not to pray. It was telling me to listen instead.

Then suddenly, I remembered something. When I was a little girl, one of my favorite prayers was, "Speak me to me, Lord, for I am listening."

God was talking to me... Yes, God was talking to me. So I did just that. I listened. I listened the whole time, in church, when I left the church, even on my way to work. And believe me, the whole day, the whole night, I was calm. Since I couldn't interrupt God, I had nothing else to do but be quiet and listen, be patient, be still... CALMNESS surrounded me through and through. Yes, it was God 's way of calming me down, at work, most especially.

What an experience! It would never have happened if I didn't go to church. And it would never have happened if I didn't decide to go check out the health club. I would have been farther off from church if I had crossed the street instead. And it would never have happened if I had decided to turn right and go the opposite direction. And, again, it would never have happened if I had just went straight to work instead of taking a nice walk in the neighborhood first. Whatever that was that was seemingly mundane, it was marvelous! It was something divine...


Talk More About... TM

Look what I've just found. I've read this over and over before but nothing lifts me up like TM -

Now, if I could only do it regularly...


Monday, June 2, 2014


HAPPY, a documentary on PBS on the meaning and source of human happiness featuring peoples from all walks of life including various scientists and experts who weigh in on the experience of feeling happy.

Channel surfing, watching nothing in particular, while I'm doing my bills, at the same time, listening to my music lesson on my iPhone - multitasking, Gosh! - I came across this remarkable documentary, and it's just what I need to see and hear right now.

Perfect timing! Let me watch now. This time, I'm watching the whole show.